moietmyself
1 min readJan 13, 2021

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i just want to sleep, lay my head on my pillow as the thoughts flow from my mind, but instead i stay restless day and night. every time i close my eyes, i see the entire world with a blurry vision, this blurriness that helps me forget keeps me on the edge. maybe i just don’t want to see it yet, the mess that i made from a life that was given simple and quiet. regret. pain. numbness. i am being punished for living, punished for staying strong. as i write these meaningless paragraphs, i wonder if my thoughts are worth the sharing. can you by any chance know how it feels? will you find some semblance of comfort in these words knowing that you belong? until the pain softens, until the numbness stops, let’s just get through these days, maybe this life deserves a chance, maybe we are really here for a reason and whether it was luck or just a cruse, it surely can’t be for nothing.

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